This weekend I turned another year older, at least by calender years. I went down and spent Friday night with Layne and Amy. Then on Saturday Jeremy, Becky and Anna arrived along with a few other family members.
Anna kept us all entertained. Throughout the day I remembered it was okay to laugh and have fun. For Anna, she finds laughter so easy, and is so generous to give hugs and kisses... but in all of the days events I know that we all missed one: a wife, a mother, a sister, a friend.
The ride home was long and I had a lot of thoughts. This was a first with out Sherry, birthdays and other events were a big part of her life. She was always ready to have a good time with laughter, food, cards, and gifts. I remember last years at my birthday it was a lot of effort for her, but she did it.
It is hard to think that a year ago the tumor was changing rapidly, but she was still able to provide a birthday for me.
After I unpacked, gathered the mail and settled down, I did my Grief workbook. The scripture for the day was Psalm 147: 3, " He heals the broken hearted and binds their wounds". This verse caused me to stop and reflect on how God works. He removed Sherry form our lives when His work with her on earth was done. He has healed her totally in His presence.
Theres a song by Mercy Me that says: "I can only imagine what it will be like", Sherry and I would talk about this often. Never did we really talk about what it would be like for us left here after her leaving. We would talk about what I may do, but not how I or the kids may feel. Isn't it strange that the focus is always Heaven bond? Perhaps that is why I find healing in this Grief Class. It brings out the promises from God, that His plan for me and the kids had not changed. His goal for us is still in tact, even in the midst of our loss.
For me, the kids, and the family, He heals our broken heart and binds our wounds. It is a process that God places with each of us, that He will do for us when we allow it. It isn't an instance healing, I am learning the wounds need time to heal. I have a great family and many wonderful memories, and I am so thankful for that.
Thank you all for celebrating with me, another Happy Birthday.
-Dave
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3 comments:
Im glad we could have you down. It was great having family over to celebrate with us.
Birthday's and holiday's will be more difficult than other days, but we have a strong family to lift each other up. Keeping our eyes on Christ will help us to continue to rejoice, and remind us of a greater life, that mom has already achieved.
Dave,
Happy belated birthday. We have thought of you and the family often in the past two months. We pray for you and daily. I'm sure it is difficult to have these celebrations without the love of your life. I'm sure she was smiling down on you all and wishing you a great day.
Janie & Shelby
Dave, we thought of you all that weekend. Knowing you were with Layne and Amy, Jeremy and Becky and Anna, was comforting. Mitch and I didn't want to intrude on such a special, private, and somewhat bittersweet day. It's wonderful that you were able to laugh and relax a bit, which is so easy to do with Anna, especially.
Some day we'll all celebrate our heavenly "re-birth" days, that glorious moment Sherry has already experienced. What a celebration she must have had! Knowing her, she's already making very special plans for you (and us).
You are in my prayers daily, Dave, as well as "the kids". We'll catch up with you on the next good "grilling out" day, and have you over for some grilled salmon and scallops, ok? Save us a spot on your calendar. Until then, be kind to yourself, and take care, dear friend. - Donna
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