August 7th, 2008

I remember 32 years ago this morning. It was the day of our wedding. We were moving into our home we had built. I had connected the washer and dryer the night before after our wedding rehearsal. The morning of our wedding I stopped by the house to do some things. I entered the laundry room and noticed a box of Tide laundry soap on the floor so I picked it up to place it up on the counter. Low and behold the washer had leaked and the bottom of the soap box was wet. So when I picked it up the bottom gave way and this new box of soap fell all over on the floor and I was left holding am empty box.

We have laughed so many times at this. Sherry was busy getting all ready for a day being a bride, and I was doing the laundry, so to speak. Fixing what’s been broken.

Today always marked a day to celebrate. Although it seems only yesterday, the memories are ever so present.

This week I have taken what became our traditional vacation time at the boat. This morning I got up and went to the beach. We loved going to the beach. There is something about the waves and their motion, how the water meets the sky. It was a time to talk with God. My prayer to God and His words back to me seemed to say: “it’s time to move on, its time breathe in and let everything out”.

Perhaps it’s this song that keeps playing in my mind (I love how God speaks to us through music). When I finished listening, got back in the car, and started to go, it was this song that was playing when I turn the radio on:

It’s time for healing time to move on
It’s time to fix what’s been broken too long.
Time to make right what has been wrong.
It’s time to find my way to where I belong.
There’s a wave that’s crashing over me
And all I can do is surrender.

Chorus:
Whatever You’re doing inside of me
It feels like chaos but somehow there’s peace
It’s hard to surrender to what I can’t see
But I’m giving in to something Heavenly

Time for a milestone
Time to begin again
Reevaluate who I really am
Am I doing everything to follow Your will
Or just climbing aimlessly over these hills
So show me what it is You want from me
I give everything I surrender…
To,
(Chorus)

Time to face up
Clean this old house
Time to breathe in and let everything out
That I’ve wanted to say for so many years
Time to release all my held back tears
Whatever you’re doing inside of me
It feels like chaos but I believe
You’re up to something bigger than me
Larger than life something Heavenly.

The song is by Sanctus Real, and titled “Whatever You’re Doing (Something Heavenly)”

Recently I have had to make many decisions and plans on my own. Sometimes I really have to push myself to get things done. I know God is with me, and He shows Himself daily, but it’s at the end of the day that you realize He was with you… always. It can feel like chaos, but I believe.

This spring I was asked to pray about being a Deacon at our church. Last fall I was asked but Sherry and I felt it wasn’t time. After much prayer, I still felt it wasn’t time, but God kept telling me it was, so I said yes.

This past Friday, after a month of interviews and then the Elders passing approval, then the Church body’s decision, it became finalized; I had become a Deacon.

Again this song came to mind. All that can say is that if feels like chaos, but I believe God is up to something bigger than me, larger than the life that is going on inside me.
I tell you all this to say that God continues to work in me. I cannot explain it, except to say: “It’s larger than life, it must something Heavenly.”

-Dave